Strong feelings

WT pg. 1326

I usually have strong feelings about something when I’m endeavoring into something new. When I haven’t done it before and I don’t know how it is going to turn out. I get very anxious and have, at times, felt over whelmed with the unknown or if I making the right decision. I always push through these feelings but I’m the type of person that wants to always be in control of my life. I know we can’t always control certain aspects of our lives but I try to stick to my goals and plans I set for myself. When something occurs that wasn’t planned, this is when I start to have strong anxious feelings. I immediately try to figure out the pros and the cons of the situation to try to combat the interruption. I don’t think I can compare myself to an animal when I have these strong feelings. I wouldn’t even think an animal would have plans and feel anxious when their plans are disturbed. An example of when I felt a strong anxious feeling was when I recently was offered a job from a better company than I’m working for right now. I had to make the right decision because I didn’t want to jeopardize my current employment in case the new job didn’t work out or it wasn’t as expected. The new job offer is who I want to work for but I wanted to finish my degree for I could be hired for a higher position than the one I was offered. I was very anxious thinking what I should do, maybe if I accepted their offer I could work my way up. I ended up deciding to stay with my current employer and finish my degree, I don’t have much longer to go. And then I will hopefully earn the position I want. This is one type of strong feeling I get from time to time, another strong feeling I have once in a while is right before a race. I race motocross in my spare time and when I’m at the starting gate I feel very nervous in a good way. It is an overwhelming feeling that I can feel through my whole body. It’s like adrenaline, excitement, and a nervous feeling all combined into one. Then when the gate drops the nervousness and anxiousness disappears and all is left is adrenaline and excitement. Over the years of racing I have learned to redirect and focus my adrenaline in a good way. When you have to much adrenaline it can result in people not making precise and correct decisions. And one bad decision can cost you a couple spots when you’re racing against semi pros. These are really the only strong feelings I encounter that I can think of. Except for the love I have for my family. And comparing these two feelings to animals, I don’t think I can. I don’t know what animals think and I don’t know what feelings they have. But maybe the feelings I have before a race starts can be compared to a race horse. When the horse is in the gate ready and waiting to be released to run as fast as the can and win.